The inevitable parting with my sister took place on the morning of 9th Feb with her marriage with the prince charming Sachin a night before. She left in tears & forced mine too to come out which I deliberately hide within the walls of my eyes. She is off now to her own world, leaving only traces of childhood memories in my mind when I used to hit her & she used to run to papa for safety. She had always been the core of my family, a knot that tied all of us. I promised her once that I will make myself present on Rakhi every year wherever she is. This I am always going to keep.
I wish you all the best my sweet sister & until I take the last breath I will love you & keep looking after you.
Apart from this, a very intimate person to me told me a few days back that he has started sensing that the child within me is vibrant once again. He might have said so seeing my childish activities these days. This very thing I also sensed. But I must mention that it happened spontaneously & I have no hand in it. Perhaps, my very serious persona took a U-Turn turning me into a child. I am watching it these days being indifferent towards this suspicious change. A change that I feel is soon going to end, never letting me know what's coming next. The best part of this it is that I have stopped analyzing the life & started living it. I am no more describing the things in my mind but I have started feeling them. This spontaneity lead me to creation of myself by myself unrevealed yet what I am going to create. But unworried I am of the result yet enjoying the whole process. I couldn't have explained to my friend at that time since I myself was surprised of this change. Now things have started to settle down & I am slowly learning to live with this child within me. I laugh when others are getting surprised.
Unsure of everything except of the fact that this child will die with me.
1 comment:
here's to the child in all of us: may he never grow old!
AJ
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